Have to start somewhere. I’ve learned enough to know that you don’t always get to see what the next step looks like. You just take it.

I need the clarity now.

I am tired of being tired. Most of all, I am tired of knowing the answers and not being strong enough, or committed enough, to do something about it. Especially when I know I am capable of it. I have absolutely no doubt whatsoever.

Sobriety.

That’s how I found Melissa, and that is where I usually find myself.

I have also discovered it is definitely not the right answer for everyone. But I also think we are all better off sober, especially from the hard stuff: alcohol and most drugs, the over-18 substances, not to mention the illegal ones.

It actually amazes me how many people live daily lives in society as functional adults while carrying that weight.

I know I am better off sober for a multitude of reasons. The distractions in my life, even something as seemingly simple as death scrolling, are having a detrimental effect. I am not focused, and I am not getting anything done.

So each day moving forward, I am committing to myself a few things:

• Sobriety.
• Some exercise.
• Journaling.
• Creating content that is the story.