My name is Melissa.

I have done tarot reading and Spiritual guidance for 10+ years. When I was 12 I saw a friend of my mother’s doing a reading for her. I felt connected to what she was doing so I asked the friend about the reading and how it works. She then showed me her deck and taught me one card daily readings at first and then I gradually  moved along to the 3 and 5 card readings. I’ve done several readings with a range of family, friends and some random clients over the 10+ years since learning. I practice tarot and spiritual guidance with the pure intentions of guiding people to get some of the answers they are looking for and figure out ways for them to move past the problem and move forward. Tarot is not future telling, it’s a guide to help you through personal problems, crossroads and obstacles that are blocking your path to success or happiness.

Who is Manic Mel?

Manic mel is a personality or character created for people to relate to. She portrays a strong, blunt, unapologetic, woman who just wants to help others feel validated. Manic mel wants to help you become more self-aware of your boundaries. She wants to  guide her Collective from sad and overwhelmed to Happy and aligned. Manic isn’t just losing your mind, it’s finding peace in it. Really she just wants people to know that they are not alone. 

My Biggest Challenge

The hardest parts of my life started when I was an infant. From what I have heard from some family and close friend sources my mother did not have the means to take care of me and my father was not in the picture. She tried taking me to the fire station on 2 occasions in which my grandmother intervened.

When I was a toddler about 2 years old I remember being with a strange old lady with a large group of about 12 other kids in a foster placement. I remember because I was scared and alone and I knew I wasn’t meant to be where I was at. It impacted me because I remember looking for attention or validation from anyone. I guess you would say  there was no one really there. My whole childhood was survival.I was left alone or with the wrong people alot.

I was assaulted and hushed many times to the point when I was 11 I started doing really heavy drugs, at 13 I joined a gang and saw a lot of things that haunt me everyday. I was very addicted to drugs and was a major alcoholic for almost 7 years.

When I was 18 the worst happened to me which changed my life. I fell victim to human trafficking and spent 7months in dissociation. I prayed and asked god the creator for help and that if I made it out I would help other people and I would not do drugs or hurt other people. I was saved by a biker gang.

They helped get me off the drugs and sober enough to go home. The one man who gave me advice told me even though I went through so much pain I made it through and be grateful I got a second chance, then got me home to my mother who told me that what happened was my own fault for my lifestyle. I took those words and left for Vancouver. I attempted to end the pain shortly after being there which made me have a whole new outlook on life.

Recovery

I went to recovery, did a lot of therapy, where I learned I am not the things or trauma that happened to me. I am the strong person who forgave those who hurt me because they were probably going through some hard times. I was also diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder from all the childhood trauma I went through. 

From there I focused on healing and helping others. I went to school, became a residential care aide, met a lot of wonderful people, when I was 21 I moved back with my family because the man who would father my children got injured for the first time at work and was very demanding of me so much that I felt unsafe. At 25 I had my son and we decided to move to Victoria bc, we did well for a few years and at 28 i got pregnant again with my daughter and shortly after my kids father got injured again and i had to move back to alberta. 

Shortly after i moved back there father moved with me and got sober. His family said they needed him back in Victoria so we moved there. That’s when I found out he was using again and he attempted to kill me with my daughter in his arms which led to court and a safe house for a year. While their father tried to get help but just always found himself using, at some point I told him he needed to stay clean or let me raise the kids in a safe environment and he left. It’s been 6 years and i told him before he left that he can see them any time if he is safe. I had a relationship that was very amazing for 5 years until I found out I was not the only one he was talking to which destroyed my routine and I fell into a depression that has since been dissolved with my new partner who supports me. Dealing with life has been tough but I always manage to come back to my feet. So thats why i help people through spiritual healing and tarot because every one needs guidance at some point.