I am not gonna say I pay a whole lot of attention to the signs…that is to say I believe in them enough to make a post out of them. There is no doubt about that in my mind and there was absolutely no doubt in her mind, just ask her friends. Nicky was a True Sagittarius.
Nicky worried about me, indeed because she loved me. She would buy me clothes if she saw something she like for me, even if she was mad at me. Giving me a dirty look as she would hold the clothing against me to size it up.
She overworked herself, by doing more then anybody else at her job and caring to much for her friends if that is even possible. Nicky raised the bar of expectations in the workplace simply because she had work ethic. Personally, been there done that. Don’t know how to go slow, get good, get fast, naturally.
As for her friends, she would do anything for her friends, and no matter how much trauma was in our own life, Nicky’s true friends valued their time and her compassion for their own challenges.
Nicky was my #1 Supporter. It didn’t matter what I was doing, didn’t matter how crazy the idea… she used to tell me to make the money and she would help spend it.
She would also tell me about her dreams almost every day. And it would always start the same way, her saying she had the weirdest dream last night…
I would say oh yeah, or I don’t know what to say.
Hey folks, listen to me hear, if your partner wants to tell you about their dreams, just listen and be fascinated. You never know what you may discover about each other.
We had a couple of labs. Seems like so long ago, we had to leave them at a farm for animals when we had to move while still renting. Dogs were not allowed because we weren’t ready for that again. So instead, I still have our 4 cats. Nicky found the Brothers, Nacho & Chip, and we both found Moochie. A month after her passing, I found Leo.
She was a little paranoid about making mistakes but only because she wanted to do a good job. A little reassurance would be all it took for Nicky to fly.
4 Mystery Shop 100% at Staples, she was very proud. And a letter from a University Professor saying she will teach about Nicky and her Customer Service Skills. She said she hated retail but in that position she was allowed to flourish, and she did.
She was a hopeless romantic and she was not afraid of showing affection. I miss her hugs, I miss her asking for a kiss and I miss her smacking my ass.
She was real. She was present and she was the one to face most things that were hard to look at in life. She had no problem staring reality in the face and calling a spade a spade.
She also said she was ready for judgement. Nicky used to say she was going to die young. That was the negative thinking and I used to tell the Universe is listening. I don’t think cared though. I think she wanted to see what was next, she was ready.
I don’t know what to say, I miss her. And I don’t know if I would want her to be here on this earth with what’s going on right now.
I love you Nicky. I am Thinking Good Thoughts.
